I Write to...
I write to...
I was so upset the other day because I was tidying up and doing some organising throughout the house and I couldn't find my old journals.. I have been writing in journals since I was 10.. and I couldn't find them.
I did end up finding most of them but one is still missing.. it was my first journal and I will be bummed if it's forever gone. We move so much that it could have been easily thrown out by accident. I can still see the little girl writing in the leather bound journal and telling it all of my dreams, fears, loves, interests, dramas... It was a big journal so it lasted from about 10- 18 years old. Lots of memories in there. Fingers crossed it appears one day. :)
It got me thinking about writing and why I love it so much. I write to connect to myself.
I write to let it all out- no judgement! It's the complete and honest truth as to what I'm feeling.
I write to love. It is such a pleasure for me to put pen to paper- even in a world that is so virtual. I prefer pen to paper. All of my calendars, planners are still pen to paper. I always have and probably always will love tangible items. I will forever buy books. Can't imagine reading on a kindle.. Nope! Even the smell of book paper makes me happy :)
One perk to this blog though, is I can't lose it. It can't go missing and years from now if my kids want to check it out.. a few clicks and there ya go.
What a year, right? Still in a bit of confusion of it all. Extremely grateful for all of the good things- healthy, happy family. Job security thus far. House over our heads, food in our bellies. VERY GRATEFUL! But this future is looking different. It is hard to think of what it will look like in the coming months for our kids as they head back to school. Again, Positivity is a ripple effect.. as is negativity. Whatever I'm feeling, my kids will feel. So to them I will be excited for new beginnings and look forward to Olivia starting a brand new school year at big school. (Ben will be home with me) However, my heart sinks a little bit to think that school is going to look extremely different to them then what I experienced as a kid.
The other night Olivia shed tears of missing her friends and family. She talks a lot about the virus and due to some very cool shows like 'Storybots', she understands what it means.. she actually explained what a virus is to our cashier at the supermarket the other day. I was giggling. When she was done articulating her knowledge she then said, "this virus makes me very frustrated." Later that day she cried. She wants to see her grandparents and get on a plane. I told her the second that we can, we are getting on a plane. She smiled. We also talked about school and how she will be able to meet lots of friends in September. This got her excited too. Inside it made me so sad to see her sad.
She feels that it's different and we aren't as free. Pools where we live are still closed (big bummer as it's 120 degrees Fahrenheit here) and while I plan lots of activities at home throughout the day and try to do a couple of play dates a week- she sees it's different. It's incredible how much kids understand. We had a long talk about how we need to continue to do the best we can. That is all we can do.
However, this experience has also shown me how strong us humans are and how perseverant we are! We get on with it and do the best we can no matter how difficult a circumstance! That is something to be proud of!
Speaking of travelling, we probably won't be travelling for another year. This is a difficult one. Being half way across the world is tough enough never mind having a pandemic occurring- adds a little more weight to feeling far away. We hold onto those summer holidays to see our family. Gives us a sense of peace knowing we have that.
My husband and I got married 6 years ago just the 2 of us with a couple of witnesses and were going to have our big wedding with family a year later in England- where my husband is from. However, 6 months after we got married, I got pregnant with Livi and we had to cancel the wedding as it was too close to the due date. We were thinking to finally have this wedding, now that our family is complete, this December in Florida (where most of my family lives). However, after much discussion, we have decided to push it back again to next summer. :) It is something very special to look forward to though and will make it that much more perfect knowing all of our family can attend and we can all be together after so long being apart.
I write to connect with others...
When I do something like a blog- it is to connect with strangers. We all can relate to one another in some way and that makes me so happy knowing that if even one person can relate, understand or have some peace of mind knowing they are not alone in feeling a certain way- how cool! I think writing brings us together.
I write to connect with myself and others, to be honest, to let it all out, to love. I write because it's something to go back to when I'm older and see a piece of my history that can't be forgotten, erased or thrown out.
Until next time my friends! Virtually hugging you all... until it can be a tangible one (hopefully very soon).
I was so upset the other day because I was tidying up and doing some organising throughout the house and I couldn't find my old journals.. I have been writing in journals since I was 10.. and I couldn't find them.
I did end up finding most of them but one is still missing.. it was my first journal and I will be bummed if it's forever gone. We move so much that it could have been easily thrown out by accident. I can still see the little girl writing in the leather bound journal and telling it all of my dreams, fears, loves, interests, dramas... It was a big journal so it lasted from about 10- 18 years old. Lots of memories in there. Fingers crossed it appears one day. :)
It got me thinking about writing and why I love it so much. I write to connect to myself.
I write to let it all out- no judgement! It's the complete and honest truth as to what I'm feeling.
I write to love. It is such a pleasure for me to put pen to paper- even in a world that is so virtual. I prefer pen to paper. All of my calendars, planners are still pen to paper. I always have and probably always will love tangible items. I will forever buy books. Can't imagine reading on a kindle.. Nope! Even the smell of book paper makes me happy :)
One perk to this blog though, is I can't lose it. It can't go missing and years from now if my kids want to check it out.. a few clicks and there ya go.
What a year, right? Still in a bit of confusion of it all. Extremely grateful for all of the good things- healthy, happy family. Job security thus far. House over our heads, food in our bellies. VERY GRATEFUL! But this future is looking different. It is hard to think of what it will look like in the coming months for our kids as they head back to school. Again, Positivity is a ripple effect.. as is negativity. Whatever I'm feeling, my kids will feel. So to them I will be excited for new beginnings and look forward to Olivia starting a brand new school year at big school. (Ben will be home with me) However, my heart sinks a little bit to think that school is going to look extremely different to them then what I experienced as a kid.
The other night Olivia shed tears of missing her friends and family. She talks a lot about the virus and due to some very cool shows like 'Storybots', she understands what it means.. she actually explained what a virus is to our cashier at the supermarket the other day. I was giggling. When she was done articulating her knowledge she then said, "this virus makes me very frustrated." Later that day she cried. She wants to see her grandparents and get on a plane. I told her the second that we can, we are getting on a plane. She smiled. We also talked about school and how she will be able to meet lots of friends in September. This got her excited too. Inside it made me so sad to see her sad.
She feels that it's different and we aren't as free. Pools where we live are still closed (big bummer as it's 120 degrees Fahrenheit here) and while I plan lots of activities at home throughout the day and try to do a couple of play dates a week- she sees it's different. It's incredible how much kids understand. We had a long talk about how we need to continue to do the best we can. That is all we can do.
However, this experience has also shown me how strong us humans are and how perseverant we are! We get on with it and do the best we can no matter how difficult a circumstance! That is something to be proud of!
Speaking of travelling, we probably won't be travelling for another year. This is a difficult one. Being half way across the world is tough enough never mind having a pandemic occurring- adds a little more weight to feeling far away. We hold onto those summer holidays to see our family. Gives us a sense of peace knowing we have that.
My husband and I got married 6 years ago just the 2 of us with a couple of witnesses and were going to have our big wedding with family a year later in England- where my husband is from. However, 6 months after we got married, I got pregnant with Livi and we had to cancel the wedding as it was too close to the due date. We were thinking to finally have this wedding, now that our family is complete, this December in Florida (where most of my family lives). However, after much discussion, we have decided to push it back again to next summer. :) It is something very special to look forward to though and will make it that much more perfect knowing all of our family can attend and we can all be together after so long being apart.
I write to connect with others...
When I do something like a blog- it is to connect with strangers. We all can relate to one another in some way and that makes me so happy knowing that if even one person can relate, understand or have some peace of mind knowing they are not alone in feeling a certain way- how cool! I think writing brings us together.
I write to connect with myself and others, to be honest, to let it all out, to love. I write because it's something to go back to when I'm older and see a piece of my history that can't be forgotten, erased or thrown out.
Until next time my friends! Virtually hugging you all... until it can be a tangible one (hopefully very soon).
Love you so much, lovely one, and truly identify with all the things you were saying, as a mother, wife and friend. Looking forward to better days and counting our blessings for all the wonderful gifts we have received-children, health xo Celebrate every day xo
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